I hate...

I hate when my friend calls me and complains about her ex bf. Seriously the dude is 21 and immature. Ridiculous. They broke up cause he cheated on her or was on the verge of cheating on her. He is a controlling little obsessive bastard. Yet, she calls me and is all like blah blah he is pissed cause I want to go hang out with my friend. He actually had the nerve to tell her what bars she can go to..WTF. Then she tells me they are working on it and she slept with him. Why would you want to date someone who A) Is constantly talking to other girls behind your back and B) He tells you where you can go or you better text me...holy hell

oopsy

So sometime last night I went to the bathroom and i thought I was going back into my room but no i went into bfs office where i proceeded to fall and knock over his paper shredder. I dont remember any of this though : S

Lovely love love

Sorry I been MIA for a while. Been spending time with bf. I love how little moments in life can make you fall in love with somebody all over again. Like the other day bf and I were helping his mom at school and I was just watching him interact with the little kids and helping them. He is going to be such an amazing dad. I was like God he is amazing or when I walk in his room and see all his soccer and wrestling stuff from high school. Fall in love all over again.
It's just amazing how you can just look at them and be like your mine. I can wait til I'm his forever :)

Being a hermit

Sorry havent posted in a while, nothing important has been going on in my life. Going home to Wisconsin hopefully tomorrow if weather permits. We want to go to our college town for happy hour on friday to celebrate chuck's birthday. Other than that it's the same ole same ole. Dont have a job yet, but hopefully that will come within in the next two weeks so I can be working when boyfriend is working his job.

I look like I'm 12

I feel like I need someone to teach me how to dress cute. Boyfriend and I go out and we run into girls he went to high school with who are around my age. They dress so cute in their sweaters and high heel boots. Then there is me standing there with a hooded sweatshirt that I've worn since freshmen year of high school looking like I'm 12.

Twins Fest is in four days, I'M SO FREAKIN EXCITED :)

It's thursday

The week is almost over and I don't give a shit anymore. I'm not going to worry and get myself down. That is my new positive attitude. Boyfriend got a full time job which means closer to moving out and closer to me getting a baseball themed wedding lol.

The new show on MTV disturbs me. What freakin highschoolers act like that. None that I know of. Weird.

Struggle with staying posititve

All my life I have struggled to get things wanted and it sucks. I feel like things are so much easier for my peers and siblings. It's been like this since I was little. I struggle to pass math, my drivers test, and now I struggle with getting a job. My sister already dislikes her new job so she is looking another and boyfriend has had like four jobs since we been up here.
It's so hard to be a positive person when you been put down so many times. It doesn't help that I have my parents and boyfriend's parents being disappointed in me.

The only thing I have is my writing and boyfriend. He is only one that tries to make me believe that everything will be okay.